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In December 2005 I went to see Glen Zielinski, DC, DACNB he is a Chiropractic Neurologist. He is one of the only Doctors who said he could help me! And he did. I was getting I also went on Ativan somewhere in this time. I finally realized after Acupuncture, Chiropractic, Shamans, Surgeries, Morphine Pumps, STS Treatments, ETC..... that the problem was most likely the Benzo's. With the advise of Dr. Rhodes in Corpus Christi, TX I started going off of the Ativan & Valium this was June 2007. The STS Machine works much better without Medications. So on the second week there I started reducing the Lorazapam (Ativan) & the Diazepam (Valium). Both of these are classified as benzodiazepines (Benzo’s). According to most western Doctors they are easy to phase off of. Fortunately I remember what it was like to get off of all the other drugs so I decided to take it very slowly. This process has been very difficult, I have had major withdrawals which include increased pain, now on both sides of my body, depression, fear & major insomnia, to name just a few. Luckily Joe found a web site from a Doctor Heather Ashton in Great Britain which has been very helpful. It's amazing that I was unable to find any help here in the United States?? Accept for Doctors who just wanted to replace one drug with another. Several sites that Joe found also compared the withdrawals from Benzo’s to those from heroine & a couple said that benzo withdrawal was even much worse.
Charles Wells - Prescription HELL! I have never done heroine but this has, and is still horrible. I now understand why drug addicts stay drug addicts. Stopping is hell. Your mind and body do everything possible to get you to go back on the drugs.
Beware of Benzodiazepines— Background to the benzo problem
As of 1 August 2007 I am completely off of Ativan and Valium and the withdrawals are worse than ever! There are times when the pain is so bad I just want to die. My vision come and goes. At time it even hurts to think. Here is a list of my present withdrawal symptoms:
Insomnia, Extreme Pain, Pins & needles AHooked on Xananxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia, Perceptual disturbances, sense of movement, nightmares, Depression, misperceptions, Excitability, jumpiness, restlessness, Poor memory and concentration, Tingling, numbness, altered sensation, Dizziness, light-headedness, Weakness, "jelly legs" Sensory hypersensitivity (light, sound, taste, smell), Metallic taste & smell, Tremor, Muscle twitches, jerks, Muscle pain, stiffness (limbs, back, neck, jaw, head), Tinnitus, Sweating, night sweats, Confusion, Palpitations, Fits.
No mater what your Doctor tells you
Worldwide Benzodiazepine Withdrawal Support Resources My only hope is that things will start to improve soon. I got this from the Benzoisland support group: Something I wrote to help me get through this: It started out as a casual affair When I needed you, you were there Everyone said you were good for me So how was I to disbelieve You numbed my suffering and pain well Took away anxiety - took away hell You soothed me, relaxed me for awhile And, I accepted you ... though in sort of denial Time passed by, your once comforting ways Are slowly fading, fading each day You leave me lonely, anxious, fearful and sad What happened to those lovely days we had? My mind confused and my body tires I wonder and doubt you, are you a liar? Why did you reel me in this way To trust you fully, now you cast me away Maybe I need to show you I need you still I crave you and I need you to take away the chill Come spend some more time with me I need you I want you, can't you see?? Thank you for seeing we need more of eachother I'll be with you, you'll help me like no other Ahh that's better the pain has faded away I feel better now , with more of you today But even though you're here something is missing.... You're not the same as before - hey are you listening? Are you there to help me still? I'm here with you - now take away my chill Why can't you do more, be more attentive You're distant and vacant, this is no way to live I see now, I see your greed You're using me to fill your very own need Well, what if I don't want you anymore... The thought of you now sickens me to the core Get out of my life, go away fast I want you gone, gone into my past Oh hey now, that's not fair - don't punish me Just let me go now, just let me be Ouch, ouch you're hurting me deeply I dont want you, get lost get away from me Why won't you go, please won't you go You're hurting me badly I feel now so low What can I do or say to convince you having you around makes me so blue That's it I know I'll shove you out and lock the door Be gone you've ruined my life enough, but not anymore Stop knocking stop shouting simply just GO! Nothing you can say now - everything I know I can't sleep, with you out there Can't you understand I'm pulling my hair I'm getting no rest my head's full of pain You've done nothing good, there's nothing to gain Staying around here like you do, Is foolish, I want to just let go of you You're draining me now my energy weak My suffering with you is hitting it's peak Will you stay and stay like a thorn in my side? Is there somewhere I can go, to run away and hide.. I can't stand the torture you're putting me through I try to rid myself of you, and you are there just like glue Stop calling me will you stop knocking on my door I need sleep, rest and oh so much more Oh wait, I get it now it's ME against YOU! A challenge a duel, well I'll rid you like the flu You won't win you just never will You're evil you ugly nasty little pill! I will flush you from my body, and mind too I'll fight and I'll fight to win over you Never will I lose to the evil likes of you You've chosen the wrong life to turn blue Yes you are strong, but oh I am stronger Soon one day, you'll be in my life no longer So say goodbye and I'll take the pain For in the end this is all MY gain! After you're gone and I'm rid of you My life in the clouds or on a sea of blue Floading and gloating the battle I've won Free from the torture, now facing the sun You pathetic little troll of the mind From this day on you can kiss my BEHIND!!!!
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The pain got so bad by the end of December 2005 I just wanted to die. Joseph started checking into Assisted Suicide for me. One night things really got bad and Joseph called Dr. Reis and Dr. Zielinski they both said to give me any pain medication that we had around, so Joseph tried some Lorazepam (Ativan). This is when I tried Lorazepam for the pain it HELPED. I went to see Dr. Ken Melvin and he Prescribed Diazepam (Valium) he told me to take as much as needed? 'If I took too much it would just knock me out". 
